A collage piece that depicts a fragment of the artist's treatment with antipsychotics after years of unmedicated psychosis. It focuses on cognitive side effects that can at times be as debilitating as the psychotic symptoms they aim to alleviate.

The words in the piece were written at a time where all-consuming delusions had been replaced by struggles to complete tasks as simple as telling a mug from a bowl. They are an attempt to convey the sense of hopelessness at being unable to function normally but knowing the treatment that is causing it is necessary. A confusing mixture of gratitude for the effectiveness of medication and resentment at having to be constantly tranquillised.

The artist would like for there to be more recognition that psychiatric treatment and recovery are not linear paths and there are rarely easy answers. It is normal to have complicated and contradictory feelings about treatment, but it is the artist’s hope that this process can be made easier in the future by giving psychiatric patients autonomy and control over their treatment. By being allowed to be part of their own treatment and being given the necessary information to make informed decisions, a vital piece of power can be given back to patients who desperately need it.